Forever never lasts

Every time we feel something, every time we try to reason, every time we make a new friend, every time we have a crush, why does it have to have an end, when there is a promise made forever? Because forever never lasts...

Times in life come where some people seem so perfect that you can never imagine life without them, but then you move on, and life still seems perfect. Perfection lies not in the people you meet and the situations you tackle, but perfection lies inside you. I have met people throughout my school life and there were times that I was really close to them, but today I hardly get to see them. The biggest thing I do to connect to them is either like their facebook profile picture or their statuses.

I remember, I wrote poems for each one of them and their importance in my life, but when I read those poems today all I think of is, I wish I could still be that friend that I always was to them.

Why do people promise for having a forever when it never lasts? Why do people waste precious time over people who are never going to stay? Because, human beings are fools, they need someone to rely on, they need someone to comfort them, they need someone to tell them "Everything will be alright, just hold on!". Everyone have had times in life when they can not face themselves, they can not believe who they have become, and so they hide from the world. And this person, whom they trust, believe and want comes to their rescue.

It is not bad to rely on people. But never expect them to stay for too long. It is good if you move on as soon as they move on, because holding on to what is not meant to be, will depress you.

Memoirs...

This was the poem I wrote during the farewell.. Old is Gold?
I dedicated it to my feelings and emotions which I felt at that moment. So here it goes....

Feels like the last ever drop of campaign,
Don't know why but this heart still thrives to move on..

Feels like the glorious days are coming to an end,
But this mind still thinks of another possibility..

Everything seems empty, everything seems dark,
But Don't know why I still feel there's light out that the other end..

This funny and weird feeling of losing something but still having it..
This awkward moment of feeling lonely in a crowd..

Maybe this is how it feels when you know it's over but still want it to go on....

I reread it today and I feel there is nothing purer than a poem written right from the heart :)

Holi? Self realisation? Random thoughts?

Festivals for me have always been fun. Indian festivals is all about making yourself look good, asking God for more, eating like you will never see food again, meeting family and friends like today is the last day. So many things! Cultures are many, but none as rich as the Indian's.

The festival of colours, I welcome it each year with all heart. I never looked forward to it as a festival to celebrate or rejoice, it was just another HOLIday. But this time it was different. I looked forward to it for a month, I was going to play HOLIIIII!! Not just sit in my bedroom laughing at people looking like Avatars. I was going to look like one myself!! It was better than I thought it would be.

Seven years ago, I saw myself in the mirror all pink and the colour didn't wash out for two days. And today, while I look into the mirror, I see myself pink again, looking like a monkey with a red nose. those days came rushing back to my mind and I realized, I grew up too fast and took up too many responsibilities, but that is who I am today. And I proudly accept it.

Life isn't about NOT looking back, it is about looking back and smiling at those days and remembering those moments and feeling the love just ONE MORE TIME.........

Nostalgia....

Today evening old friends of my brother's and mine dropped by. I remembered, that there were times when I used to meet these people everyday and spend the long boring bus journeys with their interesting stories and jokes. It seems so long ago, those bus rides. They started talking about the moments we had together and started to pull each other's leg. We laughed our heads off and cherished the moments we spent together.

Today I travel back alone from school, no company but music. Some songs I listen to remind me of those good old days at DAV, and sometimes fill my eyes with tears, and leaves my heart heavy. I wish those days come back, but we need to move on. Yet, I am still stuck with the emotions I felt and the people I love. But that's alright ain't it?

On some days, I try to sit back and rewind to revisit those amazing moments I miss so badly today. The whole craze of hot guys, writing, dancing, friends, socializing and every single thing that gets me head over heels are because of the closest friends ever. Discussing every minute of the day, not forgetting to remember birthdays, having huge crushes and bigger secrets are some things which I can never share with anyone else.

The people I met and was with at DAV were the best part of my life. That school was the pioneer of every emotion I have learnt to feel. The school recognized talents in me and molded me to perfection. I owe every single bit of who I am today, to that school. Many students didn't find the school really great. In fact, they criticized every bit of it. But I still feel, the culture, the background, the foundation that the school has given me has shaped me into the person I am today.

So to the good times, the great friends, the amazing experiences, the learning, the basis and the love.. I miss DAV and wish I'd never grown up.  

Passion-THE RULER!

It runs in your blood. You are born with it. You are supposed to live with it, so discover it. It is within you, it is solely yours. It is your creativity.

Every child is special. I totally agree. Everyone of us is blessed with at least one talent and we should explore many till we find ours. !PASSION! The vibrant word which can create and destroy. This passion can be love or hate, it is deeply embedded in the soul of yours and you can never run away from it. For some it is easy to find, for some very tough. People spend years on something which isn't meant to be theirs, but finally they realise what they are made for. Better late than never?

All of us have one thing we crave for. All of us love one thing more than the rest. All of us can give up anything for it. And that is passion!
Passion never asks you to compromise, but you do!
Passion never asks you to fight, but you do!
Passion never asks for your love, but you love!
It isn't the emotion that counts after all, it is the duty. Duty towards YOUR PASSION!

Identifying passion might be impossible, but search for it with all heart. It is hiding inside you, waiting for you to call out. Life never treats you with opportunities. You should grab your on and work on them, explore them, and love them. You will find it someday, after all the toil and hard work. The fruit will be too sweet or maybe too sour? But accept it, and work for it. Your fruit will ripen, your day will come, your fortune will speak. PATIENCE my friend, PATIENCE!

Women not free birds?

Women have always been a symbol of oppression in every society I've read about. There wasn't one society which respected women and regarded them equivalent to men. This is not only the practice in different parts of India, but also in cultures all around the world.

For instance, I read the book 'So Long a Letter' by Mariama Ba, and that book speaks about the atrocities against Senegalese woman in a post-colonial Africa. Despite being educated, the protagonist was enslaved by customs and culture all throughout her life. This points out the narrow-minded age old traditions which are still being practiced around the globe.

We do not understand why in the first place were women suppressed? Was it related to the physical weakness? Was it related to the unpredictable mood swings? What was the reason?

Women are strong, they are fun, they are beautiful, incredible, unpredictably sweet, forgiving, sacrificing and loving. I fall short of words to describe women. Respect and dignity to everyone irrespective of their gender is a vital thing for the society to live.

Women are opening up now-a-days, they have spread their wings to master every walk of life. I am so proud to be a lady! I will follow my dreams and fly high, maybe reach for the stars?! I will fall once and once again, I will stand up and walk ahead, learn from my mistakes and be who I want to be!

Let us all grow out of the shell that is protecting us, let us show the world, equality is what we believe in, nothing SPECIAL for us!

Emotional Atyachar

For times in life when there is no reason to live, find one. I have found mine. I have always had passion for a great many things in life, but could never succeed in getting everything I wanted.

I always had something between me and the thing that I loved, but not anymore. I love to write and I will.

I was thinking about emotions controlling the lives we live, today morning, and then everything fell into place. Why do people get so emotionally attached to things which aren't meant to be forever? Why do a lot many people get depressed and affect their lives because of the depression? Why don't people understand their value? Why don't they know that what the feel isn't what they feel alone? There is someone somewhere in the other corner who feels the same, who weeps for the same, who wants to get away from the same. It isn't always ONLY you. There are many of them whose hearts break because of the same things and most of them survive through it and come around. Some people completely change, for better or for worse. But they live through it, because they look at life as a colourful range of small packages.

Emotions should not control your life. You are the master of your emotions. You should be able to feel what you want to feel. You should be able to overcome things that traumatize you. You need to look at life with a smile and accept every upcoming challenge. Do not blame circumstances for not taking your side. Be wise and blame yourself. YOU ARE THE CREATOR OF YOUR OWN DESTINY!!

I have stopped blaming things coming in my way, and I have started writing again. that is what everyone of you should do. Trust yourself, look into the mirror every morning and promise yourself to make yourself happy :)