Chai-stained

It goes down in history, this night, I say.
It goes down in the memories I shall always hold on to.
It sinks in deep-these words you say

Skin-deep-this elation,this emotion

Do we belong together?
Or is this longing quenched?
Is it a-
Beginning to an end?
Or an end to our beginning?

Walk past you-I can't
See you fade-I won't.
I need your chai-stained heart to feel.
I need it to beat an extra beat-
Every time you hold my heart in your palms
I need you to feel the flip in your stomach-
The start of journey-the end of familiarity

You are no depression-but the reason to hold on
You and I-the chaos we are-
Is nothing but the innocent gap
The gap we need to feel this way.
The gap we need to apologize.
The gap we need to come closer.
The gap we need to live at all.
"Distances only make relationships stronger."
I was told, but now I believe

Forever-I love thee not.
Half a forever-I spent in the moment
The moment we knew was just ours
The time we knew no one could take away
Yes, raw and naive is this life
Like an unfinished poem
An unspoken word
But chai-stained I am for eternity
Burnt and sticky, burnt and sticky.